about me?

I was the gamer growing up in Tijuana, Mexico. Nowadays everybody is into the idea of selling your soul
	to control a digital avatar and give half your life's savings into loot boxes or micro-transaction, but before
	there was the omnipresent overseeing of content in video games, there were hispanic grandmothers like mine whom were 
	still strugling to tell the difference between a gameboy and a playstation portable. That's a bit about me. 
	I'm not like your average person. Because I like philosophy, post-modernism, sex, and being anonymous online. 
	Those things aren't "me" but my instincts are to laugh when certain people suffer. And sometimes it's the person with 
	their boot stuck to my ass or throat. Sometimes it's the very same family I am in hiding from. Or sometimes it's big 
	brother telling me what I can and can't desire. Me? I'm borderline destitue but because I don't give a fuck and gave 
	everyone the impression that an after-life existed I am now living in a minecraft survival session I can't lose. 
	I've backed up my files. I even asked uncle sam to fix my computer screen. It's all I have. I'm working hard to stay 
	young, healthy, gifted and prosperous-but you know people...they had other things in mind. Like a voodoo doll. 
 
	Yeah, like, I don't have a lot of practice with Spanish because I like bad words. Not just in spanish too! I like 
	to say all types of bad words during intercourse or out-and-about. Friends bang slang, but my family hates that 
	$%&! They're not successful people so I can't talk or express myself without getting out of hand. 
	It sucks but that's why I like being online chronically and say mean bad dirty whack stinky stuff. Do people agree with me ?
	Do I make money ? Hardly. People see me with my PC and they think I parked my Tesla in the sky. It fucking sucks to police 
	my thoughts and thinking. Some say it isn't like that at all but I don't see myself on the top leaderboards or making the differences 
	with the right people. I just live in a facist america. Latin americans I try and stay clear of. Too many alcoholics. Not enough 
	pop-art for my liking. Either because of racism or a lack of upbringing. I don't see why I'd get another generation involved with my 
	"broncas" which I'm sure means something. 
	
	I also edit a lot. Sometimes I like rewriting what I have to say. Although 
	there are very few reciprocal or accountable matrices. At least socially speaking. 
	This is something I struggle with often. Collaboration with elaboration. I'm certain 
	people get what I mean when I describe certain obstacles but I don't see myself helped 
	by the understanding or ever sense that by doing so we reach a mutual end. 
	
	I'm poor. I don't believe in god. I design video games. 
	And I read.